Lillith's dead. I swore to protect her with my life and I failed. Fuck, how could I be so stupid? We did everything right - we locked all the doors, sealed the windows, and I had the bat and was on patrol constantly. There was no sign of anything, anywhere! It was safe. Her parents and I both confirmed it.
Then, yesterday night...there was a knock at the door, right after we finished eating. Naturally, I grabbed my bat and headed towards the door. Lillith's father came with me - her mother stayed with her to make sure nothing happened. We checked the peephole and saw it was a UPS delivery driver - with some kind of package for us. So, we opened the door.
That was when Deadwood threw the driver's corpse at Michael(Lillith's father), and charged me. I think I hit him once with the bat before I was on the ground and at his mercy. I tried to grab the bat but he got to it first and, I would presume, smashed me over the head with it, as that's the last thing I remember before waking up.
(Edit: the only thing I remember about Deadwood is that he wore some kind of tattered uniform, probably police based on his earlier post)
(Edit: the only thing I remember about Deadwood is that he wore some kind of tattered uniform, probably police based on his earlier post)
i still can't believe that we were so stupid. i loved her and still do and now she's gone - i'm such a failure
When I came to, I...remember checking on Michael(he was fine), and then we ran into the living room to find Lillith there. She was dead before she hit the ground - so says the medical examiner. Apparently Deadwood had a knife or something that he rammed through her heart - killed her instantly. At least she didn't suffer in the end - if that means anything at all, now.
oh god what have I done
i've failed her, i've failed myself my family, robert, everyone
I've tried writing this up for the past two hours and I still can't get the words right. it's so hard to think right now.
He's taken everything from me - my friends, my family, the woman I love - all of it, without mercy. He doesn't care - because He has no concept of love, or mercy, or justice. He just exists to feed and feed - and no one can stop him, the cycle of death continues, round and round. With people like Deadwood who willingly drop on one knee and serve - it ensures that He can still do what He does best; break hearts and shatter minds.
I remember a saying in an H.P Lovecraft story - "a dead god who still dreams". I know it doesn't 100% describe what He is, but - it's almost as if it's the closest thing we've got to a description. He is so far beyond what we can know - and His influence is felt, even in our dreams and thoughts. There's no escaping Him once He sights you. He will take everything - and leave nothing.
My life...it doesn't mean anything right now. All it means is that I am alive because He hasn't chosen to claim me yet. And you know what? That's fine. Before He does claim me, I'm going to do the one thing justice demands I do.
Deadwood, you're - well, dead. For Robert, for Lillith, and for everyone He's ever harmed.
You're fucking dead. I may die, but if I can take him with me it will be a victory for the fallen.
Oh Sebastian.....I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteAll I can say....
Don't lose yourself. Keep your feet on the ground and your head straight. And I hope you end up happier one day.
You saw the post he put up.
ReplyDeleteHe's taunting me to go meet him. I have to - I have to end this. Somehow.
Yes, I saw it. But.....don't be reckless. There's nothing worse than getting what you want but having lost yourself so far, you don't know why you even wanted it.
ReplyDeleteI have to do it. If not for me, for Lillith and Robert.
ReplyDeleteEspecially their family. Shit, they've lost their kids within a few month span. I can't help but feel it's all my fault.